Joel Jonas Tan Ngee.

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Sunday, September 13, 2009

Hello there.

Didn't do much revision over the Holidays.
1 or 2 practice papers the most.
It's difficult to study now,
wait, it's never difficult to study.
It's more of unmotivated to study.

Nice people around me are encouraging me,
"You can do it!" , "Don't give up!".
I'm really grateful because those remarks do help alot.
Nonetheless,
when it comes to replying these pleasant words of encouragement,
I find myself saying, "Well, doing what I can! haha."
Or maybe, "Yeah, Well, I'm managing haha!"
It's no longer,
"Haha, I'm doing my Best!"

Well, the fact is but ofcourse,
Right here, right now, I'm definitely not giving it my all.
The clock keeps ticking,
while Joel keeps sleeping.
The stress of the coming 'O' Level exams comes and go.
It does not play much of a role though,
It just sails like the wind.

Before the 1 week break,
It was just when the Prelims had ended.
I felt totally confident about it,
was ever so eager to get back my results and stuff.
Somehow,
within this one week,
that confidence seems to have faltered.
I've lost that feel of accomplishment,
that feel I had when I stepped out of the examination hall numerous times.

Well in the coming week,
the results shall be revealed.
Perhaps If I get bad results,
I would go on a frenzy and study like mad.
Perhaps If I get good results,
I would be assured and less stressed because my Mom will be less worried.

The mixture of fear and excitement is quite hard to swallow.

Now then,
I should be going off.
If there's one thing I'd ask of the people around me,
I'd ask that they be happy.
People that encave themselves in worry,
are encouraging others to do so to.
Foolish it would be, to worry to our own demise.
However, Joy.
Joy brings hope to people,
Joy is something shared by everyone.

Referring not to wrong intentions,
Seeing happiness flourish in someone,
makes you want to do even more to make that person happier.


Joel.