Joel Jonas Tan Ngee.

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Thursday, September 24, 2009

Hello.

Just got back from the hospital.
Nothing serious, don't worry.

Well, it appears that now,
I'm like more or less living on a pill.
Don't ask me about it,
I'll tell you if I wish.
Not that I'll die if I don't take my medicine or something,
but it will be to my disadvantage if I might choose not to take it.

Anyway,
It's not all that bad.
There's something that worries me to the death even more.

..While looking at the vast improvements I made in my studies,
I asked my Mom, "So are you still worried?"
She sighed and gave me a reply, "How not to?"
"There's so many uncertainties, like you never know what may happen. Like for your exams, You never know if a question may appear that's new to you. I can't stop worrying when there are so many uncertainties in life."


..Well, when I heard that,
I could literally feel my heart just sink.
My chest, weighted with a load of burden.

..Yeah, I'm pretty lost at what to do.

The worst part about problems,
is not facing it.
Rather, It's not knowing the solution to it.
Because no matter how tough the solution may be,
You're bound to solve it with determination, effort and support.
But when there's no solution,
everything goes to naught.


Joel.