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Friday, November 14, 2008

I feel so exhausted.

I feel like I'm close to dead.

Today was one crazy long day.

My muscles seem to be aching all over due to the previous day's training.

My eyes could barely keep open cause I was up late at night, going through the programme list.

When people are tired, you should be the one that is least tired.

When everyone's morale is down, you should be the one with the highest.

When everyone is down, you should be the one picking everyone up.

When everyone is lost and don't know what to do, you should be the one leading the way.

It's not all that easy you know,

i guess..

.. I can try?

It's not easy at all, and no one said it would be.

But if i gave in my best,

would that be all that counts?

Just got me thinking about it.

Cause i was kinda shocked when i was asked if anything was wrong,

cause i looked uninterested in everything.

It was kinda shocking cause just a few minutes before the question,

i was thinking in my mind,

"I should be more cheerful about this cause it'd be better for everyone"

..Though,

I guess fatigue can still get the best over everyone.

Except with a few exceptions when maybe Khoo Guan is around.

I thought i saw the spirit of everyone today cross a valley.

Everyone seemed to be alright at the start,

just a bit tired from waking up around 6 in the morning.

Soon after,

somehow,

time seemed to pass slower than usual,

and i guess most/some/few of us felt stressed,

and really worked out and all.

Cause that's what i really felt.

It was kind of a period that lasted,

cause the progress in work started to slow down,

quite drastically.

Somehow, many people seemed frustrated and reluctant and all.

Everything seemed to be going bad,

and it was as though the workload would never end.

I don't know how,

I don't know why.

All of the sudden,

people started to get the working spirit back and all.

NCC logistic team was great when they came back with the scrubs that Mr Tang told them to get,

only with the fact that they already went to scrub the dirty walls.

I was like "woah" when i saw them saying that to Mr Tang,

and yet somehow got motivation to do things right.

I felt i managed to do my work,

but somehow Mr Tang was like,

"I don't know if you've fallen in love,

or fallen out of love"

..Ugh, didn't get what that meant.

But i was like "rofl!"

Anyhow,

was relieved when the final debrief was over today,

cause i was feeling so glad that i survived this intensive working day.

I really felt stretched,

but I guess it's only when we feel pressure,

do we really set things right.

Overall, today was..

Deadly.

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Hey, i guess i would say " I told you so",

but it just isn't quite right to say it,

cause i'll be uh, poking myself.

I'm homebound tonight,

..And it's not exactly very great.

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I Just got my new phone,

getting used to it.

I'm really grateful, cause i felt i really needed a change in phone.

Today,

I was unable to call people properly cause of i don't know what,

My up and left navigational buttons only work sometimes,

which means most of the time,

i can't even go anywhere else other than the menu.

Messaging has really been a pain,

cause i can't use the navigational buttons.

..I'm just glad i have a phone that i can use now.

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Sunday's Confirmation day!

Please do come!

Joel.

This is Me. 8:33 PM