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Wednesday, August 20, 2008

Procrastinators

Leaders of Tomorrow.

The tomorrow that never ever comes.

..Quite true don't you think?

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Today, was a really long day.

The morning was cool and nice,

i like the cloudy sky alot.

Winter's coming soon,

perhaps it's already arrived.

Exams are just around the corner,

yet this year it seems really different.

It's not really the same anymore,

definately not.

I think people really don't know what they got till it's gone.

And as time past,

things change,

influenced by other factors and other wonders.

This year, it always has been up to late at night doing work and stuff,

last year, the only period where i stayed up after 11 would be during exam period,

..and graduation night video afterwards.

That period of studying was so special,

like so much determination,

though it was just burning the midnight oil.

This year, i'm up all night and test comes along now and then.

Because it affects our Assessment so much, it makes it no different from examinations.

And since there's so much left to do,

with so little time,

it has to mean that we, or I, have to study just like i did last year.

First few times it was done,

results turned out to be alright,

sometimes good, ..maybe great.

But just then,

it happens, .. something goes wrong,

and the results is not what you expect.

Consequences is seen,

but not to worry, once is fine.

After a week,

a month,

half a year.

It seems to be all ineffective now,

there's more things, and lesser time,

there's more test, more studying, but lower results.

And at one moment, all you want to do is just to relax.

..but that chance is so hard to grab.

So an attempt is made every now and then.

Then, things don't seem to work.

..and it all falls apart.

"Everything is F'ed up straight from the heart,

tell me what do you do, when it all falls apart?"

The difference,

in comparison between the present,

and the past, ..not too long ago, just a year ago.

it's everything.

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You're Emo.

No, i'm not, i just think deeply, don't you think?

Well, it's almost the same.

huh? Nah, it's different.

Nope.

When you think too deeply,

you Drown.

Perhaps i Did.

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I was going through some june camp pictures for an SL who requested for it.

Then, i found the video that had me sleepless for nights.

though it was all worth it.

I saw, how i ended the video.

of my own words.

"Believe,

Have Faith,

...And you will Succeed"

Followed by

"That's all folks"

Hmmm.

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I want to end off here.

Goodnight.

Joel.

Go to a place where they won't know who we are.

This is Me. 10:59 PM