Today was real depressing.
Started off in the morning, with waking up, in front of the computer.
Can't believe i fell asleep flat in front of the computer
i jeer at the very thought of it. booo.
Was up till 2am?
Editing what the sound and the video,
which in the end did not turn out to be very brilliant.
..So got up and everything was in a mess.
My documents, my work, everything i was left with earlier that day.
So ofcourse i had to clear things up,
i did so, and by the time i was done, it was already a quarter to 7.
Than i had to change, ..and pack my bag, and all the other school stuff.
Rushed off to school,
was almost late.
..And this is the second time that i'm almost late this month.
Last Friday i was also almost late for school,
and while running i fell on the grass patch,
i got up and started running again so quickly that i didn't realise,
..i lose something really precious.
SO,
school begins.
Nothing much then and there.
I think i couldn't focus because of what i had to worry about.
Anyhow, class wasn't great today.
Well,
after school i think things started to get better.
Almost had a headache,
but lucky it didn't progress.
Went to Media Factory to start working.
I don't think it's nice to say what i said to Gordon in the Aesthetics room
He should know, but it is very true that it was horrible.
I shouldn't go any further.
Started real work after Royce came.
..Followed by Clement and after that progress was faster.
Was so relieved when Royce came in,
..and was overjoyed when Clement stepped in.
It's really great to have friends you can trust and count on,
Stuart would have been there if he could.
..Really reminds me of old times.
So much has changed.
Man,
time has a way of taking things,
..this really is true.
lol.
I hope Stuart is fine though,
..and i hope things get better for him.
Anyhow, the progress was actually rather slow.
Because of many factors,
one was that we really did not get the main idea,
and two,
we feared that the video will come out in a wrong way(perspective & position)
..In the end,
it was still a no choice situation.
..and seriously this kind of situation sucks.
Cause you can't do a good job,
even if you wanted to.
The time spent in making the video isn't very short FYI,
plus, it's one of the things that has almost gotten me in trouble this morning,
and caused me valuable knowledge during curriculum.
But i guess there's no point COMPLAINING about everything.
Cause if your life's like that it's the duty you have to face and be responsible of.
Right now, i'm not doing a very good job,
but at least i know i tried,
..cause that's what's important.
Anyhow, i left school at 8:05 today.
I think it's a new record for working hours in the Media Factory.
Not something to be proud of,
cause it shows how inefficient my work is.
and now i'm wondering,
when am i going to learn to do it all right.
Cause i hope it'd better be sometime soon,
since 3 video projects are coming my way.
I've been too active in he media and SL side,
there's St.John activity tomorrow,
i hope to catch up on stuff.
i don't know why,
for the past 3 days,
i've been feeling so greatful,
to the people i have that have been working with me for this project especially.
Mainly Royce and Stuart, plus Clement and Jian Hao.
All of them gave me the feeling,
that there are so many people actually you can rely on,
these people are there ..to help.
And i feel so lucky that i've met Royce and Stuart really.
I've known them since sec 1,
3 years may not be long,
but the thing is how they've somehow motivated me,
in a matter of 3 days.
Friends are one of the greatest treasures in the world.
I came across something to day as well,
which isn't very nice,
but i don't want to elaborate it here,
cause i'd rather forget it.
**
Just some scribbling:
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I've come across many people in my world,
some of them whom i call friends.
Some have drifted away,
Some have gone away,
I still hold memories of that very day,
where i met that person i a special way.
Few are close with me till this very day,
Oh, what can i say.
I am trouble, yes i am.
but this troubles go away,
like rotten fruits that's tossed away.
When i was tired and up very late,
they gave me chocolates to keep me awake.
When i was cold, shivering with hands cupped together,
They passed me a jacket, to keep myself warm,
and pull myself together.
When i was confused they talked to me,
and the knots untied and it all seemed clear to me.
Sometimes i wonder i'd ever survive,
without these guardians that are sent around me,
i am blessed and i am lucky,
to have them whom i call friends.
Thank you.
**
I shall end of.
Cause i have to get back to work.
Thank you God,
for the friends i have,
Especially,
the ones that have been with me throughout,
Sometimes even without me knowing.
Amen.
Joel.
F.Y.I : I'm not going crazy and this is me, maybe it's just a sudden breakthrough in life which has lead me to this.
