Joel Jonas Tan Ngee.

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Monday, June 30, 2008

They say that when you feel as though you're going to die,
the one thing that you want most in life will appear in your head.
Well, Maybe i wasn't going to die,
or the pain was nothing compared to a heart attack,
but well, i guess pain can never be described.

The pain aggravated as i stood up,
it grew worst as i sat down,
it grew persistent as i lay down.

It started off really mild, like just an irritating feeling.
After lunch it was worst.
and i went to take a rest.

it was fine after i woke up.
Than it started to become bad again.
until around 6?
as though it couldn't get any worse,
i couldn't walk properly cause it was too pain.
Took 1 hour before deciding to go to the hospital.
by then it was 7.
Dad drove me to A&E at mount Alvernia (the hospital which i was born at)
and it took them about 15minutes before i could finally see a NURSE(Not a doctor but a nurse)
and finally after around 10minutes, i got to see a normal doctor.
By then it was around 745.

FINALLY,
i got an injection, and the pain started to subside after around 10minutes.
There weren't any 4 bed wards,
so the next option was a 2 bed ward.
sat on a wheelchair up to the 4th storey,
and settled down in my ward.
which was really comfortable.

The television had many channels,
HBO, CARTOON NETWORK, discovery channel, ... ...
Next had to order my meal,
Mushroom omelet and toast for lunch,
Chicken cream garlic pasta with marcroni soup and vegetables,
plus chicken rice for dinner(if i stayed longer).

Why am i so fascinated with everything,
well it's because it's the first time i'm ever warded.
(not considering once when i was younger which i don't remember)

Next, day had to have the drip on for me,
so they stuck the needle thing into my veins.
And now i've just come to realise i'm not afraid of needles.

After that, i managed to get some peace.
(excluding the other patient snoring as though throught an amplifier)
I listened to music from my ipod which i brought,
and it really calmed me down.
For once i did not worry about a thing.

Well, it was great while it lasted.
the pain actually ended at around 11pm.
So that's a total of 10am-11pm,
hmm.. 11hours?

The very next morning i woke up,
i felt refreshed as though i slept for a very long time,
and then came my parents,
..and my breakfast.
watched some shows on HBO and discovery channel.
Some cowboy show on HBO
and something about Beijing's Egg national theatre.

waited for the doctor to arrive for a long time.
Gave me a green signal to go,
but adviced to stay for lunch so that it can be monitored.
Ate my chicken pasta, waited for two hours, watched spiderman 3 on HBO,
Nothing happened, time to go.

On the way back home in the car,
i think about all that i've been through.
And it seems so clear.

I just need to know that i can breathe,
Joel.