Joel Jonas Tan Ngee.

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Sunday, April 20, 2008

I cant scream out loud now,
like how i screamed at the carpark yesterday.

Everything is contained inside now,
..and it doesn't feel good.


Blue Beatitude -JoelT.
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Wide endless cloudy sky,
i cant get rid of it no matter how hard i try.
..Memories of Saturday.
Tears fell when they cried,
compliments of how hard we tried.
Joy Tears laughter and sorrow
Feelings of no tomorrow.
and i'm wondering,


How it could have been,
Happiness, joy for all.
a celebration.
Yet
feelings put down,
happiness ruined,
joy desolated,
..Blue Beatitude.


Bright fluorescent light,
My shadow now goes bright,
..surrounded thoughts just once again.
The horror of being called out first,
the gold that we had thirst,
..shattered into slitherins.
Coldness, chills down the spine,
advancing up in line,
..we have let them down.
and i'm reminiscing,


Was it meant to be,
this outcome for all to see.
The phrase that lingers,
the thoughts that mingles,
the suspicion that is aroused,
the continuous emphasis,
..with integrity
Yet
A celebration of a leader born
the separate celebration of the trophies won,
the splitting of the party of members,
the difference experienced.
Of Blue Beatitude.


Does it all comprehend?
When is revenge?
Is there a plan?
Are you my friend?
Can it mend?
Will there be a second chance?
Fill up my hopes and dream,
grab it as it seams,
that piece of victory
lies beneath this misery.


Was this suppose to be?
This failure for all to see.
The despairs on me,
the weight of number 3.
Blue Beatitude,
is all it seems,
we're still a team.

and as you get closer to the light..
your shadow grows bigger,
but don't be afraid.

Team.
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The feelings much better now,
After writing that whole thing out,
Lyrics for a song i'm going to compose.

Tomorrow is school again,
i hope i'll be the same i think i'll be the same.
I'll either be really quiet,
or i'll just be normal as usual
though feelings will still be kept inside.
Blue Beatitude, explains my feelings now.

I would like to add a few thanks,
to those who have wished me good luck before the competition,
those who have congratulated me,
and those who have encouraged me.

Namely a few,
Dominic, stephanie, shuxian,
Charmaine, Royce,
..and especially,
Shili and staff Nabilah.
Lastly,
My Team.

I wish i could give my team a hug now.
Soul.